More Life: You Are Not Crazy

The new moon. Mercury retrograde. The devil working overtime. & overall stress. All of it. All of it tried to kill your favorite b*tch (me).

No, but seriously. I had an entire moment this weekend. A MOMENT. I felt all over the place, unprepared, unsure, uneasy and downright crazy. Nothing was making sense and my energy was completely off. It was truly an out of body experience, but the remaining sanity within me knew that whatever I was feeling couldn't get out of hand, and needed to be confronted head-on. So I made an appointment for energy work and tarot with Carly from Consciously Connected. Carly is a friend of mine (of many years) and just recently launched her own business. Carly is someone who has always had good energy and great vibes. Her home is serene and possesses all of the elements to calm anybody's nerves. A few years ago, Carly taught me something about myself that I needed to hear without saying anything, and I hold that near and dear to my heart. It is important to genuinely connect with people who help you grow without effort. It speaks to their spirit and unmatched value. My reading talked a lot about change, chaos, communication, persistence, opportunity, and being a warrior. Everything made sense and all the pieces of the puzzle fit.

Change for me is hard. It's not something that I like, but it is a necessary part of life and the evolution that embodies it. I have been going through a personal and professional change for months. I was changing and so was everything else around me without me even noticing. It started with what I was and was not willing to accept in conversation and engagement. It happened when I catapulted myself into the world of blogging. It continued when I decided how I wanted to spend the rest of my professional life. It was maintained with how I would study my craft and give birth to my suppressed creativity. It was manifested in my attitude and maneuvered through my relationships. Change had arrived and I had no clue that a storm was coming until it hit. Life doesn't always prepare us for crazy changes or the "heavy rain" but somehow we still make it because it is our fate, it is our destiny, it is our story to tell and pass it along to whoever may need a reminder that they are not alone in whatever it is that may be troubling them.

So here I was, wading in the waters of the storm...getting my doggie paddle on, when I was reminded that I was a warrior: I know how to swim. No lifejacket or floatation device needed. I don't know what the future holds, but what I do know is that I am here, I am alive, I am willing, I am ready, and I am more than capable because I AM A WARRIOR and I AM NOT CRAZY.

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