#Goals: I Want to Become a Fitness Fanatic

One of my resolutions for 2018 was to develop a healthy (and loving) relationship with working out and my overall health. Maintaining a healthy lifestyle has been no easy feat. I am the yo-yo weight queen. I go crazy hard in the gym for an amount of time that gets me the results I desire. As soon as I start feeling cute or can fit into whatever outfit I wanted to slay in, I just stop going to the gym. Not only do I stop going to the gym, I also start eating anything that I can get my hands on and I commit to it.

I started back going to the gym and eating healthy during the first week of January. I hate it. A lot. But I want to love it and I am trying to get there. I can't expect change (see: miracle) to happen overnight, so I am here for the process and am accepting all of the feels that come along with it. Right now I don't have any weight loss goals other than getting off the weight that I gained during the holidays. Blame it on the gumbo! When it comes to weight loss, I have to admit, I was never a person that made much fuss over it until I got into my mid 20's. That is when I started to notice the difference in my appearance. It was also during this time that I began to feel the effects of being in spaces with people who made body image a major topic of conversation, and not in a positive way. It was the sticky note that was stuck everywhere and it never felt comfortable for me. This is why it's very important for us to make sure that we are secure in who we are and not let the thoughts and ideas of the people around us compromise that. Make whatever changes that are necessary for you and your house, but don't subscribe to negative energy or poor self-talk because it will consume you. As you speak, you will become.

I have a few staple items that mean the world to me when I am trying to get in shape and have proven to support me in reaching whatever goal that I set out for myself, regardless of how temporary the outcomes are.

I have to have music while I work out. This means: no group sessions/ training, no small talk, and no games. I literally have to zone out to get it done, because I already don't want to be there. The music has to be loud and it has to pump (see: Scarred by Luke).

I am back on my green smoothie lifestyle and low-carb meals. Pray for me. Plz. TYSM.

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